blankets were the stairs

i just watched a trailer for a movie that i can safely say is going to ruin my life. I can tell already. I'm going to talk about it for a really long time, than i'm going to see it and get all bummed out. I'm not going to tell you what movie it is, and i'm not going to be in this state when it comes out. I think i will go see it by myself. I think i will drink a lot of drinks, than take a taxi to the theatre, and see it. Maybe i will cry, maybe i will be completely unmoved, maybe i will leave the theatre, walk out onto the sidewalk and bump into the love of my life and never leave the place i'm going to be. Maybe all the things i really want are right in front of me. I can tell you are telling me. Do what you feel. And no, i won't tell you where i am going. I will just vanish. Don't worry though, i'm not going to find the love i was talking about before. It won't be where i am, so don't worry about it. I'll be back here as soon as you know it. Haunting the places i haunt every week. trying to find something real. and don't ask me what the movie is. please. please. please.