evrything and the whole world combined.

yeah yeh yehhey here we are. we are brave now. are we? are we? i want to be around the water. i'm just in one of those moods. i kept saying earlier: "today is the best day of my life, everyone but me is sad, everyone but me is miserable, i'm the happiest person on earth". If you asked me now why i was saying those things i would have no idea. but that is not what is important. what is real, and important is that for a couple hours today i was really happy as humans can get. as far as i can tell. i've been real happy before, but today was just something. the sun and the songs i was hearing and the possiblity of joining a band i really admire and just having money to throw around and having fun with and having technology to keep me together and my favorite dog in the house. i don't mean "dog" as in "hey dog, i'm a track and field star". i mean dog as in my favorite canine. my buddy in black. as awful as i ever can find out how to feel he hangs out with me. and now i am just trying to stay that way. it can't happen, but i want to think it can. the song that is playing right now will make me cry someday. a whole lot of days from now. it is going to happen. i will be curled up. somewhere. this song will be playing. i will be watered and full up. it is only a matter of time. i wouldn't tell you the title if you asked me. it is mine. i mean, eventually all you can do is sleep. (stolen)