how many lights do you see?

first off, happy birthday, Jamie. I love you lots, and i hope you had a fun time doing whatever you did today. I think it was working, which sucks, but maybe you did some sweet drugs later on or something. That aside, i got some sweet new tunes today. the same artist, just different/new songs!! and they are really truly great. Thanks for the haircut abby! it looks way better than it should, for real. I wanted to stay at the bar, but being sober and not feeling well, and smoke hurting my eyes was a drag. I'm trying to work on new songs, i guess. i remember i used to work so hard at this shit, but now it's always second to watching dvds or drinking, or looking at the internet. i really hope the thing i want to happen comes together. like so bad. i really want to own something good. and i'm excited about lunch tomorrow. and i took these great cold pills the other night that fucked me up out of my mind and i was hallucinating and talking all this crazy shit to meredith about how time wasn't working, or it wasn't moving fast or enough or some shit. The show that was on while i was sleeping was stuck in one spot the whole time i was sleeping. it was out of control. either way. thanks for the album as well abby. i probably won't listen to it for a while, since i'm kinda tied up in this other band i'm listening to lately. i promise one day i'll start listening to other bands again, and that day i will listen to the album you gave me tonight. walking talking fucking mannequins are together no more. we will learn to live somehow. someday maybe. somehow.