i hear a flutter of wings.

i'm tired, but i had to put this album on my i pod before i went to bed. Two albums, actually. The one is maybe, well it's really good is all. I know i have this weird tendency of flying off the handle about new albums, but this album is really good. It comes courtesy of a great bro who has bulletproof taste in everything anyway, so it should come as no surprise this is amazing. I will now promote the band, cause i genuinely think they deserve it. They are called someone still loves you boris yeltsin and they are really on time. If you like the shins, or just really anything beautiful that can fill you up, this is for you. Please go give em a listen at least. I mean what could you possibly be listening to that is better anyway? Probably something so five minutes ago it isn't name-droppable at this point anyhow. So get on the bus. And it's only eight dollars! come on! That aside, i'm stoked for tomorrow. Aside from work, it should be a blast. B-day party for Brian at jam central station, and then onto boys and girls. You should all go, the beer flows like wine there. until then. if you're reading this, get some sleep!

just then sound broke in and stole us away.

another one of those late nights i've been such a big fan of lately. only this time actual sleep occured for more than two hours, and i didn't have to work the next day. Not to say that makes me like those days any less. I like those days when i'm just barely there. It's all swimming and i can hardly do anything without laughing for no reason. And then i'm listening to some songs i just love, the one that stuck with me all day. The one i can only mime a few lines of. The lyrics elude me, but that can't kill the melody. and sure, it can haunt me. those stings of piano fluttering. i guess this is just one of those artists who can put out a song or a record that really pushes your face up to the glass. i'm getting off topic though. today was just a fun day. i was in a really great mood the whole time. and yeah, some hints of light have gotten through. and maybe that's what all this is about. just drove too fast over all that water. just found my way back north/west. i think it was north and then west at least. and i was laughing hysterically while watching a guy jump into sewage and then vomit all over the place, and it didn't seem to bother you in the least. man. that really was hilarious though, right?

early>slender.

i woke up so many times last night. I have no idea why. i finally gave up around eight something this morning. I feel like i'm having writers block. I used to write a song every day, but now i hardly even pick up my guitar anymore. I'm just glad it's sunny again. That weather was getting to me. It's not warm or anything, but the light helps. I'd say i wish i didn't have to work today, but i'd probably end up watching day time television and not getting dressed until like 4 in the afternoon if i didn't have something to do. either that, or eat the whole bag of licorice i bought yesterday. I don't like work, but it keeps me busy, and semi distracted. And i got some movies from blockbuster, so i'll have something to watch later on when i get home. I got this movie called "poor white trash". I was watching comedy central yesterday and i saw about the first 15 minutes before deciding i'd rather see it with all the swear words and stuff. I'm listening to counting crows covering Ryan Adam's "come pick me up". I'm actually looking forward to going to jacobs tomorrow night. I haven't been in a while. hopefully i'll see you there.

four doors to the foundation.

i guess i did a lot today. i went and dealt with my horrible bank and then talked to a real good friend on the way home. After that i ate too much and spent the rest of the day shopping. I spent too much, but didn't worry about it. i don't know if i am yet or not. I'm just uploading some albums, and listening to some bright eyes. Enjoying that moment when you can smell the rain on the air, but it just isn't around yet. I'm stoked for the of montreal show, although my lack of funds made purchasing tickets tricky. Tomorrow. promise. My computer is going really slow, due to the uploading of cds, and it is driving me nuts. I hate it. It's waiting for me to make my mistakes. to just flash them on the screen, so i can wait. I gave up on trying to do this while it was uploading, so i waiting until it was done. I watched a great movie tonight. i think i might want to buy it. i'm not sure. i just think it was really beautiful. __-----____ and then the line split. held by one of two. from one middle to one east. i lived there one time. on some street. near the park i would occasionally wander through. now i can barely remember any of that time ever happened. I remember april 7th 1997 i think. I think that was the day it happened. i left early and watched the movie named seven. I was only a few blocks from where i lived, and even closer to where i would eventually be kicked out of. i would have to check the archives to see if that date is right. it hit me hard though, so i think i remember right. who am i to say. i'm tired now, and need to get these songs to the mothership, so i'm doing that and going to bed. Until tomorrow. have fun living.

sound like a summer falling.

Man, i have no time these days. i woke up early to hit blockbuster so i could get the movies i wanted that came out today. Thanks to blockbuster's new "no late fees" policy no one has any reason to return anything when it's due. So if you don't get what you want the morning it comes out, you probably won't see if for a few weeks at least. Regardless, i got mines. yeehaw. Then i spent sometime at a place, came home, ate a veggie burger and some salad, listened to some new music, went to practice, and here i am. With no voice or sleeves. I'm big into britpop lately. Today i listened to bell X1, radiohead, oasis. I also listened to bright eyes, counting crows, DNTEL, coldplay, and motion city soundtrack though. The new song is coming along really well. I think we may have finished it tonight. For being written in all of 20 seconds of jamming, i think it's pretty on. I didn't find anything fun to post today, but i'm not posting anything anyway. I don't want to turn the scanner on. I found out that in addition to the news of a new Bret Easton Ellis novel, there is a new Chuck Pahliniuk out soon as well. Apparently it is super twisted and involves canabalism, cutting off body parts, and lots of other family oriented stuff. I wish i had amnesiac. my copy skips. i just really want to hear pyramid song. it's so pretty. I watched this wild japanese movie last night/this morning. It was out there. It had a really cool name though. I'm pretty stoked to see of montreal on thursday. I hear they put on a phenomenal live show. Hopefully, it will be a grand time. Remember that time you bought an album, and you maybe at first weren't ready, or you didn't instantly like it, so it fell to the back burner? Every so often i take those records out to give them a fresh space in my life. Sometimes i think "why did i ever buy this"? On the other hand, there are times like now. I expected the follow up to a record that changed my life, and didn't know what to make of what i got. It layed awake for a while, and was given new life when i imported it to the old i-tunes. It lives with me now where ever i go. But sitting here, hearing this album again. I know why i loved this band to begin with. I don't want to sleep yet. Although i've nothing to do i don't want to lay down yet. I may watch a movie. I don't know if i have the patience to watch anything right now though. My mind is racing right now. Like i can't type fast enough to catch it. the web of me and ernest hemmingway. I still have the intention of releasing a new solo record at some point. I have about 60 songs since the angels record. I want to title it maybe what i put before. "the web of me and ernest hemmingway". Or anything to do with he and i. Some of my new songs are going to balcony though. A super secret thing i cannot so much as speak of. yet. I could keep typing all night. I really could. my mind is swimming. In the channels i once navagated. through the mines of water and sand or land to crush the will of us. I got us through. i got there. i was sand. i was near death on some plot of land. drinking underage. in the arms of the coast. before i was who i am now. before i got found or lost somehow. back when i knifed the skin from fingers to the second story to the back of the portrait. i mailed to you myself and you took your time and my all. ugh, sorry. so so pretentious. i cannot help any of it sometimes. there is a movie i would love to watch, but i wouldn't be awake to see it unfold. I know how it ends. i love it just the same.

"...and this music makes me feel like i'm underwater"

good observation, although i'm no longer seeing him. Alas, school has taken place over an all day spending spree with money neither of us have. Oh well, so be it. Everyone should be more than a little excited about this.I have a really good note i found a long time ago in a bank parking lot i will upload later this week. It is great for a few reasons, i think i was supposed to find it. I pulled into the bank and went in, but as i was coming out i noticed it under my car and grabbed it. It was written by what i can only assume was maybe and eigth grader? maybe seventh. Every 6 lines or so it switches between purple print and retina burning neon green. It says love a lot, and makes you think about middle school. It made me at least. If it's hard to read i don't know what to tell you, it's just as hard for me. Before the end of this week i'll have that and some more of the child art. i'm stoked for thursday for the of montreal show. i hear they put on a fun show, and i'll have a little money to run around with, so it should be a dandy old time. Speaking of dandy, everyone should rent/buy DIG. It was super good, and like just about everyone i read/seeslasheat/take in, it changed my life. I think. who knows? I rented some hot movies tonight, i'm really stoked about. Hotel rwanda, and some wild japanese thing i rented cause it looked really disturbing. One more thing and then i'm out until tomorrow. Last night i had this dream i was by the water, and i had a truck i knew was mine. A really big blue truck, that looked like the end product of an episode of pimp my ride. I didn't know how to get in it but then i found the keys in my pocket and it had a remote on it. Someone in the dream was telling me how it worked, and i pushed a button and the doors opened. I mean, i think that might really exist, but why was i dreaming about it? Do i secretly long to be among the vehicularly advanced? Those with light up this and multiple spoiler that? I doubt it, but i thought about that dream all day long. until the next day.

in a constant in a constant ina ana acons.

so in keeping with this new idea of things i've come across, here is some things i found that i can only assume were from a parent visiting a kid at school. first off is this note i don't want to over-intellectualize it, i think it's good on it's own. and with that i found a number of hand drawn pictures. I will add more over the course of the week, but here was my favorite. i just like all of the chaos, and the the nicely written "johnny". I also dig it due to it's subconscious annonimity. It's fun all around. Nothing is new with me, just hanging around, wanting tomorrow to come. Been watching lots of good movies. Need to get to the store to check out some more. The new books record is really good. I hope you love what you're doing.

. so that is a cat i own. I'm gonna put up way more pictures and stuff. mostly of stuff i find around. like this

i really like in that note at the top how it says "could have been working somewhere else. could have called off after the garage". i mean, you get the jist of the whole thing from reading it, but it's fun to think what this dude must have been so bummed out about. i think this might be my new thing, trying to find stuff people have thrown out and making it in to a neat post. so hopefully this is the start of good things.

heavens to mergatroid.

it seems like i hardly sleep these days. i'm up all night, then i wake up early, run around, and do it all over again. Like today, about 5 hours sleep last night, then work, grocery store, dinner, practice, then the death in graceland show at the mad hatter. Now my eyes are killing me, but i still stare at this dumb computer. I don't work till tuesday though, so that's pretty on. Oh well, i need to sleep now. I hopw all your saturdays went just right.

it can be fixed.

no updates for a few days. i guess i haven't been very inspired lately. i've just been running around spending money and eating too much. i got some great new records though, so i can't be all that unhappy. i went and saw sin city today, it was one of the most violent things i have ever seen. it was pretty gnarly though, it was visually astounding and had tons of sweet dudes. can someone help me think of a new job to do? maybe some sort of profesional male model, or star of an alias type show. cause we both know i gotta get out of where i am now. maybe i'll move to colombus, i've been wanting to do that for a while. i don't have a lot of money though, and i don't want to live alone. who knows? maybe i'll just go there and find some warm parts of town to sleep in and slave out under the stars for a year. that town just seems like it has something going on. maybe cause i go there sometimes and see kids wandering around with direction and backpacks, looking important. from a superficial second person of them thats what it seems like. maybe i'll just go and walk around with my backpack filled with albums or something talking on a phone and eating apples all day. people would think i go to school, and i wouldn't have to do all that reading. i love reading though. as long as i can pick what it is. or as long as it has to do with my favorite television show in some capacity.